"I've always wondered if I had supernatural power or didn’t . Was
it because "I'm just a kid and I have a wide imagination," as my
grandma kept telling me, or was it mother earth sending me those feelings."
I read this sentence in my old
diary over and over again, the diary where I used to write every single thing
that happened to me , sever years earlier when I was just eight . I read this
sentence over and over with fears and tears falling from my eyes. I can't stand
being myself. I can't stand being Rawa, a fifteen year old brunette girl who
has troubles with blinking . yes, I over-blink. There's something wrong with my
eyes' nervous system that makes me blink
a lot , which took my self-confidence away. Whenever I get nervous , I blink
even more and that made everyone in my school laugh at me .
I closed my diary, put it under
the pile of clothes that lied on the floor and wiped the tears off my cheeks as
soon as my mother knocked on my door. I screamed letting her in.
She let herself in , eyes gazed
and fixed on the pile of clothes that I was sitting right next to and then to
my bed. Shock .
"laish mo mnathfa
ghorftch?ana shgaylatlch?,"Mama Mariam said
"I told you I'm not used on
cleaning my room and I told you that I'm not going to tidy it up," I replied
"Ta7achay 3arabe
i7na ga3deen bl Kuwait, mita ma radaina wales tikalimay English laiman tlou3
chabdch,"
"Inshallah yemma bas mara7
aratbha al7een mita ma 9arle khlg," I replied
"W mita inshallah
be9eer lch khlg?," She replied
" Yemma shway shway 3alay mo
ana sibab il bankruptcy ili 9ar lina , remember?" I said
Mama Mariam tried to hide her
tears by getting herself out of my room . I felt how sad my mother was when I started
talking about the bankruptcy . I'm now sure my mother still loves her ex-husband
"My father" even though he betrayed us .
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